So. I joined a gym a few weeks ago. I've been twice. I HATE working out. I hate smelly gyms. I hate having to drag my ragged ass, after work and being yelled at all day, to go try and pretend that I give a shit about being healthy and losing weight. I actually don't really care about the weight loss. I am more motivated by the need to lower my stress level and blood pressure. Of course I wouldn't MIND the weight loss...just am not super motivated by that.
Some days I get home and I am so wound up, and I feel the pressure building, and I KNOW I need to do SOMETHING. My job has eaten my soul, and all I am left with at the end of the day is a carcass with frizzy hair, bags under the eyes, half a face of makeup, and a blank stare.
I just don't understand how these people can commit to this lifestyle. Getting out of bed early, running 7 miles and hitting the Zumba class after work. What is the secret!? How do you people do it? Who are there these girls on pinterest, pinning women with abs and 14" waists to their inspiration boards!?? I feel like something must be wrong with me. All I am motivated by throughout the day is thinking of myself after work, running home to get into my pajamas, eating a brownie, and watching bad girls club. My idea 'trimming up' is getting a lil plastic surgery to get my double chin sucked off.
I guess I am going to try to get to the gym on a more regular basis and see if I can get a taste of what not being winded after going up a flight of stairs feels like. Let's start there and see what happens.